Kay. I'm a loser. I am. I am a loser. You shouldn't read this, you don't have to read this,
I'm sorry you've read anything by me. Sorry. TL;don't-feel-like-typing-everything: Have not properly gone to school since spring of 2006. I've tried a few times, failfailfailIfuckingFAILED, & I'm now going back again. I am giving myself 0 choice but to go back.So I'll be going. I might kill myself :/ I've been thinking about that a lot lately & I don't actually WANT to. I'm just very depressed. More so than usual & this lets-interact-with-people-at-school-soon is just killing me. & my physical/visual/body insecurities come out 10fold when I have to be around people. The likelihood of being able to even rarely purge + get away w/ it is small so I have to 'switch' from my usual constant-binge and then eat 0 the rest of the time to actually just going Ana with all of it. No way I'm going to get fatter once school starts for me, only smaller. Can't get smaller with bingeing unless I purge & since doing that at this time is nil' happenins' then I'll just have to try to eat absolutely nothing most of the time and actually workout...... I really need to get a job... -_- kill me.
I'm 16 now :P hoo-rahhhhhh.
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ooh darling, i so feel kinda like you do.
ReplyDeletebut (i'm not sure if it helps) you are wonderful, just the way you are.and i sooo wish everything will get better =) love ya xx