Long while, no post....

So, on Friday I went to school of the first time in 4 or so months. Anyway, my locker's in building A which is right next to a bathroom, in said bathroom I'd cut during the day (usually before school started) & hang out there during lunch because I can't stand being around so many teenagers and adults during 4th period). So, I get to school via bus at around 7:15 & I get my schedule, locker opened, books ready, etc. all done and within 10 minutes of that I'm in my ol' third-bathroom stall again. Also, at this point I feel quite nervous so I'm getting rid of the food I brought to school (which was for the show of my 'family') & I'm just patting my cuts with tissue.
In between periods you have five minutes to get to your class- there's a bell sounding the end of class, then four minutes later a 1-minute warning bell, & then the finally one signaling that you're late, ahwell. Anyway, when I hear a bell I mistake what it really is- the bell signaling school has started, you should be here by now, & now you have 5 minutes to get your ass to homeroom- & I think I only have 1 minute. I don't give near damn a fuck about making on time to homeroom (it's fucking HOMEROOM!), but if I come in late I will not be able to stand everyone's eyes suddenly darting to me & shit, so I, instead of doing a proper wrap for my wounds that I usually like to do, just grab a lengthy amount of toilet paper, wad it up, put it over my leg/knee & pull up this wristband-thingy that I always wear on my leg to keep tissue/covering/stufflikethat in it's place. I jab all of my things into my little wristlet thing (only thing we're permitted to carry, and it's a pain fitting my SI things into it) & I'm trying to pull down my pants. These pants are new (to me) and I'd only just tried them on + then decided to wear them this morning. There was not much room to initially ROLL my pant leg up & not it was EXTREMELY difficult to get my pants back down without moving the loose toilet paper + my knee-cover. I get out of the bathroom, down the flight of steps, down the hall & into homeroom. I grab an empty seat, which was the last one, 1st row, nearest to the door. Once I realize it has been a minute, I check my agenda and realize that I actually have another 3 or 4 minutes, so I get out my pocket some pills I can take while I'm going pass a fountain on my way back to the bathroom. My leg's bleeding- DUH! -through my pants. Light blue pants, dark blue blood. SHIT. shiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiitttt. Really?
Anyway, I dart on back up there, try to fix it, come back, & wait to begin, looking over my schedule, getting pissed at having this HORRIBLE math teacher (I'm good in math & I don't like having shitty math teachers) & being in a lesser-of-hers class (I'm already well above that) & I had a DANCE CLASS (!) & Gym. So, I've already decided there is zilch-way of hiding my bloody leg in gym, so I decide to cut that period.
The homeroom phone rings, I get nervous because the teacher coming right over to where I am, since I did not notice that my seat is directly next to the class phone. I'm getting paranoid, and I try to, very awkwardly, cover my left leg with my right. I look around and only 1 person is sitting even relatively cloos to me- great. Did someone see it & tell everyone? What the fuck's going to happen when mother and sister find out? I'll never hear the end of it, & I don't need this on top of everything else at home.
Homeroom ends & I'm on my way to math class. Turns out I have the wrong schedule (yay!), & I have to go to the office. And still, I've yet to get caught (wtf?), but now I'm really nervous because there are no swarms of people in front, to the side, behind, & all around me to cover my very obvious red spot on my pants. Right before I make it to the office, as I'm going down this mini-spiral-staircase, I contemplate stopping right there and cutting........ I'm freaking the fuck out & I've never experienced paranoia like this, ever. Someone comes along from the opposite way I am going on the stairs though, so I lean to the side & try to walk + cover my pant leg up.
Once I open the office door I dart to the secretary's desk so she doesn't have time to see. She starts to print off my actual schedule & that damn homeroom teacher comes in. I think 'oh, shit, he decided to take this up discreetly & he was going to come in to tell them about me, but we happen to run into eachother here, shitshit', but he just hands her his attendance list, then looks at me, and says, 'I had to add her', and I am screaming on the inside. He didn't see, he's just here to drop that shit off. & he isn't looking at me weird or anything. Since homeroom assigning goes alphabetically + I was here at the beginning of the year, he had me before, so remembers me.
And, once again, I make it out, then I'm on my way to History, no one notices. Then to Science, no one notices. Then more trips to the bathroom for bandage + cut updates. Then Computer Tech, still, no one says anything. I go abck to my locker to put my books away & while others go to lunch I go up to the bathroom. First thing I do is wet some paper towels. Then I go into the stall and pull my pants DOWN instead of UP & try to get that damnfucking stain out. I'm still incredulous that no one has noticed....... wtf? I properly wrap my leg (which I am very OCD about) and then I only have English after this. While I'm in English a chick who sat next to me in Science asked what happened to my leg. I look down and there's a kind of light-brown-green-ish color & I said (really quick- it's like I have super-speedy-reflexes when it comes to lying to people :\) I'd spilled Powerade (coca-cola company's version of gatorade, cal-free, & what I'd brought to drink) on me. She bought it.......... I'm still surprised at this whole damn day.
I'm going to get a new cell soon........ hopefully...... and I'm just bored as all fuck....... I may update from school in Comp. Tech class....... if I start getting therapy, because of the therapist not working on weekends, I would have to see him on a school day DURING school, because mother goes to (her version of) 'work' at 3:30-ish & school lets out at 2:40 so............. The only class I have internet access to is Computer Tech & that is my only elective class so it's the only one I'd be taken out of to be able to see my therapist, so that would work out quite well. I have homework & blogs to catch up on. Blog tomorrow about how Monday goes......