Freaking out about....

school, food, people, cutting, etc. Typical things :\ I cut higher up on my leg today than I normally would........ I've been being a total fat fuck pigging out on oatmeal. I have a doctor's appointment tomorrow......... family doctor check-up- eek!, I'll be getting weighed. I HOPE beyond HOPE I weigh 115....... more realistically 118-120..... what a fatass.....