Soooooooo.....

(WARNING: ramblings ahead.)

Didn't go to school again.... I keep freaking the fuck out. I had a meeting with a new therapist yesterday. It went really well, he's probably my favorite psycho-person I've seen yet. :) We were talking about whether or not he'd have to tell my mother about CURRENT SI, even though I had lied & told him I hadn't SIed in 2+ months.... Anyway, he said he'd consult someone & since she already knew that I had cut before & since cutting is an actual coping skill & not a way of doing actual damage to myself & isn't a sign of me wanting to kill myself, he'd may be able to talk to me about it & her not find out about it.
So, that went well.......... I'm actually craving cooked cabbage right now....... :\ I think I'll type up some more later. Right now I have more blog reading to do :]

Are there people out there who cut at school?

Oh, I love to. I'm starting back at school again and- ignoring the icky, extreme, oh-so self-destructive feeling- I adore cutting in the bathroom......... Taking my purse in (which I never use any other times) the bathroom, locking the stall, waiting before homeroom starts............ with all those pink-lipped, tanned, thin, preppy, clear-skin chicks gossiping and giggling right next to me with only a bathroom stall door separating us. Tomorrow's my first day going back since being at placement.......... eck. I enjoy the learning/topics (I'm a TOTAL NERD & GEEK) , I simply hate my anxiety problems with the fuckin' people..... AND my only SECOND meeting with this social worker "family" helping person is going to be on Tuesday at my school......... I have no idea what my classes are........... I'd just love to converse with another cutter that has such social problems at school........